They say that at some point in your life, you will experience the kind of sadness and loss so intense that it will change you. For the past two years, heartbreaks kept piling on that you became numb. You have been functioning under the idea that everything happens for a reason. You keeping it all in for so long has made you put on a hard exterior to protect your broken inner self. And has made you afraid that any single thing reminding you of these things will finally pull the trigger on the time bomb ticking inside of you. You were raised to be strong, so strong that you have forgotten that it was okay to cry.
It is okay to acknowledge your feelings.
And sometimes, it is okay to be happy despite all of the chaos that is happening.
And now you have been living like you are still in limbo, I want you to know that basking in the hurt does not make you weak. It just goes to show that you are human too. And no matter how counterproductive it is to say that you will be okay, I guess you will be. We cannot tell when, but I know you will find yourself in the future, reading this and smiling, knowing that you emerge from all of this stronger.